Universal Mind

Life is crazy as usual. I wouldn't say it's eccentric, but, somehow I'm seeing things that I've never thought of seeing in life.
Scrap that. That's what I'm feeling in my head right now, like man trying to self destruct.
I hate people. OK I'm not ripping that off Afif's blog. REALLY. These people tends to piss me off at the wrong time. I hate how people don't have any consideration towards people's feelings. I hate how people are just trying to piss me off all the time.
I hate pleasing people, even if I know they won't please me back. People are just pricks and bastards.
I love to push my problems and angry thoughts into a deep hole. I wished that hole were a black hole, or a bottomless pit. But it seems that the hole has a limit.
Truthfully, I'm a ticking time bomb. Don't be my next victim. I don't just burst into anger when I lose it. I'll do more than that. I'll be a nut-job punching your face the next minute. It's been years since the last outbreak, and there's just to much that the hole can bear.
Oh what the hell I'm blabbering on about. :)

It's boring here in Beranang. No where to go.

I hate restless nights of sleeping.

Few more months of grueling pain, then I can rest well.
Things to do this holidays other than IB related:
1. Fix guitar fretboard
2. Buy a ukelele
3. Fill in UCAS form
4. Lose fat (the prospects looks terrible)
5. Grow long hair and then make Syafiq jealous :D
6. See old friends, at least 1 :)
7. Lepak Mali's and NZ at least once.
8. Avoid shishas
9. Learn new songs on guitar
10. Finish up reading "Superstrings" (credits to Syazana for the book)
11. Buy dumbells.
12. Be as happy as possible (even with the miserable life I've lead)
13. Go to Sunway Lagoon (Bobo if you are reading this, plan well :D )
14. Go to Sherry's sister's wedding, insyaAllah.


Lots to do and lots to lose.
Three weeks ain't enough people.
Gotta realize that sooner.
I'll start doing everything tomorrow!

p/s: sorry for such 'emo' post.
btw I'm in a good mood tonight because of someone. Thanks a lot! =)

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I'm the master of space-time continuum

It's time like this that everybody goes haywire. People are commenting on Facebook with themselves, people tend to get grouchy much easier, screaming, sleeping, sleep walking, and much more. It's actually funny though.

Next Thursday is the final SEM 3 exam, and I barely read a thing. Flunking this test would be nice, and the chances are high as the Burj Dubai. One week of exam, then I'm free!! Oh wait, scratch that, there's loads of work to complete, and it's piling like the crap. One month of holiday to complete everything. GREAT.

It's funny how people expect themselves to be treated nicely but they themselves treat other people like shit. They say that they treat people nicely, but hey, mirror your ass before you say that. It's dumb how people assume things as their head say so without finding out the truth. It's even worse if you are immature and you don't even realise it. As far as people and their shitty behavior, just treat them the equally. We are a human being, with capability to think. If you don't use it, you're just the same as other animals.

I wanna run. Run far away from this world, and enter another dimension. Slip into the wormhole maybe.

Wait. Now I'm going haywire. I'm dead. =.=

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enter night, exit light, take my hand, and we're off to the neverland

At this hour i'm still up trying to solve some physics questions. Yes albedo my ass, the Earth warms up years already, still people in Malaysia are not aware of the situation, and what much have been done to fight global warming. Sometimes people are just selfish. Too aware of people, but not to the environment. Have you ever consider the happiness of the environment, the bears and others (which includes well-being), instead of yeeeww. People are just asses sometimes. Perhaps some full time ass. ASS. SAVE THE ENVIRONMENT PEOPLE, SAVE THE BEARS. AFIF NEEDS IT :).

another courtesy of mindless night of symbolization.

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black people are not hot like other black-body radiators

What people see isn't what it seems. Take an apple for example. Its glowing red skin attracts you to picking it up, feeling it, and then it finally goes into your mouth. Your head tells you, "oh what a succulent feeling this fruit will be". Until in the end you realise that a taste of bitter hits your taste bud, which makes you want to puke. You now take it out of your mouth, despising that bitter taste, and your eyes rolls around to see what's wrong with the apple. Then, you see the rotten black degrading flesh of that apple, which makes you despise of it. Perception plays role when we see things, like the saying goes "seeing is believing". Now, try putting it the other way around.

People tend to see things and judge it based on what they have seen, which makes them think "oh I’m right, I’m always right". Well that kind of bullshit does happens to people who themselves are bullshits. I'm not trying to be hypocritical here, for me myself tends to do that sometimes, but doing it full time, you are just being an ass. What you see is not what you believe, for mankind is not a moving metal part doing whatever they was programmed to do. The world you see is not like the electrons, swarming and spinning the continuously around the nucleus. The world is more like how the annihilation of positrons and electrons occur. The existence of positrons always ends with electrons, colliding, destroying themselves. But you must know that, not everything just ends like that. The human behaviour is like the quarks. Different combinations of up, down, strange charms and few more, makes up different sub particles, nor elementary particles. Bond between human is rather more or less like gluon. Sometimes people just stick, and some just aren't. The diversity of human behaviour makes the world an interesting place to live, to struggle, to bear, and perhaps, to survive. If all were to be the same, what good is it?

The electrons spin around the nucleus, the moon spins around the Earth, the Earth orbits around the Sun, and the sun revolving around the Milky Way. But the world damn world does not revolve around you. You, whoever you are, men or women, as an individual, the surroundings do not play around you, but others also. The brain works how it supposes to, but the way we think is more important rather than to accept every single crap your brain tells you.

Forgive me for the weird post. It’s not like every day you feel this ‘amusing’ to say things. Whatever physics that spilled out in this post, perhaps some are misleading I suppose. Sorry if some are wrong. Damn, it would be better writing the friggin’ TOK essay rather than writing this. I'm going haywire already. :(

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It ends with -ANAL

It seems a long time since I updated this blog of mine. Truthfully, I don't know what to say. I've been busy like satan whispering on an imam's ear telling him to do sin. I have lots of piling crap to finish, and it's already near the end of semester 3 already.

Today, I flunked my math test. YES, and i'm not lying. Out of all the question, I managed to finish 1a. Not to say , my stats paper is like regurgitating last night's burger on it. Damn. I was hoping for a gain in marks this semester. But then, I'm screwed.

Things to do this month:
-send first draft EE, at least with intro and system background done. lucky my name isn't called in the assembly.

-study for sem3 exam, which is practically impossible with all the damn workload

-tok essay and presentation. it's all in a mess.

-tommorow, ielts speaking test at 1pm. hope i'm not talking gibberish and i'm hoping to avoid nervousness

-saturday, the rest of ielts component

-nuclear folio.arghhhhhhh :(

i'm going haywire already, not to mention all the stupid new rules and regulations that kmb are going to apply. gate-locking is one of another stupid regulations.

oh please end this misery. another 7months of misery left, and then i'm free.

arghhhhhh wth i talk about ib here.

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